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infinite space
lingering emptiness
fulfilled only by you.

the touch of your lips,
your long brown strands through the gaps in my fingers,
the warmth of your honest embrace.

our whole lives we search for happiness,
finding it momentarily; losing it the next.
high; come down.

my deepest love brought me to you,
and together our hearts sang.
a resonating harmony.

the music ceased,
my harmony left,

my heart died a monophonic death.

a chemical love story

 how long will this last, this delicious feeling of being alive, of having penetrated the veil which hides beauty and the wonders of celestial vistas? it doesn't matter, as there can be nothing but gratitude for even a glimpse of what exists for those who can become open to it.

cocaine

Look at this shining heap of crystals! They are Hydrochloride of Cocaine. The geologist will think of mica; to me, the mountaineer, they are like those gleaming feathery flakes of snow, flowering mostly where rocks jut from the ice of crevassed glaciers that wind and sun have kissed to ghostliness. To those who know not the great hills, they may suggest the snow that spangles trees with blossoms glittering and lucid, The kingdom of faery has such jewels. To him who tastes them in his nostrils- to their acolyte and slave- they must seem as if the dew of the breath of some great demon of Immensity were frozen by the cold of space upon his beard.

For there was never any elixir so instant magic as cocaine. Give it to no matter whom, Choose me the last losel on the earth; let him suffer all the tortures of disease; take hope, take faith, take love away from him. Then look, see the back of that worn hand, its skin discoloured and wrinkled, perhaps inflamed with agonizing eczema, perhaps putrid with some malignant sore, He places on it that shimmering snow, a few grains only, a little pile of starry dust. The wasted arm is slowly raised to the head that is little more than a skull; the feeble breath draws in that radiant powder. Now we must wait, One minute- perhaps five minutes.

Then happens the miracle of miracles, as sure as death, and yet as masterful as life; a thing more miraculous, because so sudden, so apart from the usual course of evolution. Natura non facit saltum- nature never makes a leap. True- therefore this miracle is a thing as it were against nature.

The melancholy vanishes; the eyes shine; the wan mouth smiles. Almost manly vigor returns, or seems to return. At least faith, hope and love throng very eagerly to the dance; all that was lost is found.

The man is happy.